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Hope for Uncertain Times|Journal Entry 2

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Hope for Uncertain Times|Something Has to Break

What is the importance of hope for uncertain times? It isn’t just for a pandemic, it is for our future.

I recently wrote an article about encouraging Christian songs for anxiety and depression. I don’t really know why I wrote it. There was just this desire inside of me that I had that had been eating at me for several weeks. I guess I just needed a message of hope for uncertain times. And I just didn’t think I was alone in that.

I don’t always know why things like that happen; they just do. Sometimes I just can’t stop thinking about why hope is important.

I don’t think today is any different.

Spiritual confusion impacts mental health

I am going to be completely honest. I have been struggling with my own spirituality for a long time now and I have been searching for that warm, comfortable, safe place where I used to be when I was living my life utterly and completely for God. There was not a day that had passed that I didn’t want to live my life perfectly.

One day that all changed. Things happened in my life and there was no turning back. I lost my job where I worked for 5 years fighting for my life for people with opiate addiction. I met a man who was unhealthy for my mental health, and I left my church of 15 years due to some painful conflicts.

That was a lot to experience in a short period of time. And honestly, it was traumatic. The stress, the anxiety, the depression, the mistrust, the brokenness, and the loneliness was more than I thought I could handle.

Self doubt leads to loss of a sense of purpose

I doubted myself, doubted my purpose, and couldn’t even open my Bible without the rush of sadness come over me. My Bible was my safe place, and it just didn’t even feel safe.

Just as I was starting to get my second wind, and was getting myself together, the entire world got hit with the coronavirus. And suddenly, overnight, life was flipped upside down.

Why did I write my article about encouraging Christian songs? Because worship has also been my safe place.

Finding hope through encouraging worship songs during hard times

Worship is the thing in life that grounds me. People think I am crazy for commuting 3 hours one way to work everyday. For months after all the emotional distress in my life, I struggled even hearing God’s name. But that drive is the one place I can shut out the world, turn on my worship music, and think. It is the one place where my mind is silent and completely focused on nothing but listening for His voice.

My car is my war room. If there is no other place in my world that is anointed, well, my car is that place. Because I have prayed, fought, cried, found forgiveness, been delivered, and been completely broken, all while sitting in the driver’s seat.

I missed my life with Him and I missed the one person in life who has never let me down. He is the one thing in my life that is constant and never changing. He is my center, and He lives inside of my heart. And it is extremely difficult to ignore something that is a part of your body and is the reason you even have a breath in your body. When I don’t think I can breathe, He steps in and breathes for me.

God’s voice is encouragement for the future

While in quarantine, I wanted so badly to pour my heart and soul into my blog, and I would sit up waiting until 5 am sometimes, just wanting and waiting for His voice. The middle of the night is when I have always had my epiphanies, or revelations, whichever you choose to call them.

And while I believed there was complete silence during the middle of all those nights, He came to me many times. When I would talk to people and hear their stories, each time I was reminded of where I used to be. I was right back there in my office at the job I was let go of, where I used to feel God’s presence and hear His voice telling me what to say to my clients.

I began wondering, “why do people share their stories with me?” I started paying attention. Because while I was sitting here in my tiny spare bedroom I call an office, behind this laptop, I was breaking down. God was breathing for me once again. When I didn’t think I had a purpose any longer, He was reminding me of my purpose.

And then, as if it couldn’t get any more emotional, simultaneously with millions of other people across the globe, I watched George Floyd die.

I dove into politics, something I avoid like the plague. I came across Candace Owens’ diatribe on YouTube and, once again, I just broke down.

Reminders of God’s blessings give us hope

I was so angry I couldn’t contain it. Here, she was degrading a man who clearly had a drug addiction, and I, again, was taken back to all of those days in my office. I fought for those who couldn’t fight for themselves. I remembered all of the nights I didn’t sleep due to the stress from being told, “we can’t help everyone,” when I had made it my personal mission to do the opposite.

Candace Owens was degrading the very population of people who I had devoted 15 years of my life helping. People with opiate addiction, depression, or other mental health issues and addictions, feel hopeless. All they want or need is a little hope.

I have lived through clients hanging themselves from trees because they felt so hopeless. And I also have had to comfort family members of clients who have died from heroin overdose. In addition, I have been in the ER more times than I can count having conversations with clients who wanted to kill themselves because the addiction was just too much.

So why am I even sitting here writing this for a mental health blog?

Because many of us are struggling in life right now. I am no exception. But, God has blessed me with a job and He has provided for me far beyond measure. I am going to be 50 years old in a few days. That is a half a century of life experience which qualifies me to share this message with you.

The most encouraging Christian song about hope

Today I was listening to Kierra Sheard and Tasha Cobbs song “Something Has to Break.” I listened to it over, and over, and over again. And it dug deep into my soul. Because, yes, something has to break.

And it will.

Maybe you are a single mother with children you have to homeschool. Or maybe you are struggling financially because you cannot go to work due to COVID-19. Possibly you have anxiety from being in quarantine, or are feeling all alone because you have been isolated for so long.

Whatever you are going through right now, know that at some point, something is going to break. There is going to be some kind of breakthrough and things are going to change.

God’s promise is the meaning of hope

What makes me an authority on that? Because I am alive. I have experienced homelessness, poverty, abusive relationships, suicide attempts, sexual abuse, emotional abuse, divorce, you name it.

But, God made a way for me. He kept me alive, sent me to school, gave me a career, healed me, blessed me with a daughter, blessed me with a beautiful and precious granddaughter, and blessed me with angels who have watched over me my entire life.

He has put me in a position in my life where I can give the same hope to people that He gave to me. He pulled me out of a garbage can and when I thought I was the garbage inside of it, but saw fit to use me to fight for people who can’t fight for themselves.

God breathes life into our situtations

God is going to make a way for you. No matter how hopeless you may feel right now, no matter how challenging your life may feel, or how concerned you are about your future or your children’s, at some point those chains are going to break.

God is watching over you and your life. He is going to lead you through it all. When you are exhausted and standing in the middle of the highest mountain you have ever climbed, and you feel yourself suffocating, He is going to give you the breath you need and you will come up for air. You will breathe again.

I can promise that. Not because it is my promise, but because it is God’s promise.

Our world is broken because of evil. Evil is everywhere and we cannot change that; that is what happened in our world at the beginning of time. But we don’t have to succumb to it. The devil wants to destroy humanity and He wants to wear us down. However, there is nothing or no one that can tear down God, our Creator.

Finding hope during times of uncertainty begins with faith

We have to believe that everything has already been worked out and we need to live our lives as if they are. It only takes a tiny little seed of faith for things to change. He has given us power over the enemy of this world, and so whatever problems we are facing, they aren’t bigger than God.

Then He said, “What is the kingdom of God like? And to what shall I compare it? It is like a mustard seed, which a man took and put in his garden; and it grew and became a large tree, and the birds of the air nested in its branches.”

Luke 13:18-20

Faith allows us to see clearly during the storm

The coronavirus, George Floyd, or whatever else is being thrown in your direction, is sand in your eyes. The goal of the enemy is to blind you so you can no longer find your way. When your eyes are full of sand and there is a mudslide standing in front of you, close your eyes, and believe you can make it. Your faith will give you all the direction you need to get you where you need to be. And if another mudslide is standing there in front of you yet again, call on the name of Jesus. Say it a million times if you have to.

The sand in your eyes is only temporary. But if you have faith and believe, God will remove every tiny granule from your eyes and you will see again. You will see life the life you have envisioned not only for you, but for your children.

So, what I am asking is to not give up hope. My story may not be important, but yours is.

Have hope knowing you are not alone

My heart breaks for the world and so what I can tell you is that we are all in this together. We are all on a mission of finding hope. And I promise you that I am going to pray for you. I don’t know who you are, but I can tell you I feel your pain. And just like I have fought for hundreds of others, I am going to fight for you.

When I was at one of my lowest points in life, someone near and dear to my heart said to me, “Nancy, even if all you can do is turn on some worship music or something, do whatever you can do right now.”

And so, every time I listen to this, I am going to be thinking of you. And I will be listening for God’s voice. He is our hope for uncertain times.

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17 thoughts on “Hope for Uncertain Times|Journal Entry 2”

  1. Its great to have something to hold onto through all of these uncertain times. Covid 19 has definitely been tough on lots of us, I feel lucky that I have my job still and I have been able to work from home since March to keep myself safe. I feel thankful too that my family and friends are all well. I’m glad you have that safety whilst in your car too, long drives must be great when you just need to sit and think.

    Chloe x

  2. I love this post. I have an aunt who has gone through hell and back. She has children in jail, and has lived with various never-ending health issues. I ask her how she gets through it all and she says “faith.” She says God will never give her anything she cannot handle. I love that and this post. As for me, I have felt lost with my professional career and having faith that God will take me down the right path and help me fulfill my purpose on this earth has calmed my stress and anxiety significantly!

    1. nancy.richardson

      Awww. God most definitely has a purpose for you. You have a very kind soul. That is going to take you very far in your life. There are going to be many, many hard lessons along the way, but remember that whatever you are going through, it is all going to make sense one day. One day you will connect all of the dots and realize that all of the ups and the downs in your life were necessary to learn and prepare you for a much greater purpose than you had ever dreamed. And that moment will truly take your breath away.

  3. This is such a powerful post. I could see so many things I could relate to in this story. We all have times of struggle and we all have moments of hopelessness. Thankfully though, we get to have bloggers like you hope for us. I find encouraging messages in your blog posts. Thank you for your story.

    1. nancy.richardson

      Yes, we all struggle with hopelessness at times. I am grateful to hear that you feel encouraged. Thank you 🙂

  4. Pratiksha Rajopadhyaya

    I enjoyed reading this so much. This exuded so much positivity and honesty. Can’t wait to read more from you!!

  5. woww, Thank you, think Is Was Holy Spirit calling me to read this at the right time. I know now that I am no longer victim but im viroctorius and God has everythig work out. He keep me in arms and guide the rest of the way. I refuse for the enemy take anything way from me. No WEAPON FORM AGAINST ME SHOULD PROSPER.

    1. nancy.richardson

      Yess !!! The enemy has no power against us – only as much power as we allow. Even he has to obey God <3 What you're going through is only a test of faith. So believe, put all your trust in Him, and continue to praise and thank Him for what is ALREADY done <3

  6. I am going to be honest, I haven’t had any traumatic events in my life, but I live in fear and uncertainty most days. It’s my faith in God that helps me to keep pushing forward. Thank you for this wonderful post. It is so important to remind others how important faith is to living a life of peace, presence, and joy.

    1. nancy.richardson

      Keep up your faith. You are such an amazing and beautiful soul. We never have to be afraid when we are in God’s presence.

  7. Thank you for sharing your story. I also doubted myself during uncertain times and I agree that “finding hope during uncertain times begins with faith” I also like listening to Christian songs and it reminds me to trust God during uncertain times.

    1. nancy.richardson

      Yes, worshiping for me always centers me and brings me back to the moment. We will always have uncertainties in our lives. The wonderful thing is, they cannot rule our minds because they just don’t have that kind of power 🙂

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